Archive for April, 2008

我要回那熟悉感~

Monday, April 7th, 2008

对.好久都没写blog了.没有为什么.只是懒惰.

踏在陌生的土地上,什么感觉?你问我.踏在一个不属于你的地方,感觉就是陌生.心情复杂,起伏不定.想念家,想念那温暖温馨的感觉,想念那熟悉感,熟悉的面孔,熟悉的味道,熟悉的感觉,熟悉的声音.这一切,暂时看不到,只能想念..对,来了这里,除了想念,就是想念..真的好想回家~

人来人往的路上,看到的都是冰冷无情的影子.脚步快,做事快,就连吃东西也快.问我为什么?我也摸不着头脑.来了这里,一切都要随着他们的步伐行.问我累吗?累.真的很累..

语言不通,比手划脚.有时买东西还真的挺累的.我的英文,他们听不懂.他们的韩语,我听不明.说得这么快,谁明啊?我才2급叻~我们听不懂,就得看他们不悦的脸色.Haiz~他们racist?一些吧~有些还蛮有趣friendly的~

Seniors说,好好享受珍惜这一年.上了uni,没时间享受了.要拼得比别人多.不然,跟不上,就得回msia了..想到这,担心了.5年,这5年,我能不能开心地过?我不喜欢读书读得死去活来的生活,那不是生活~我只希望这5年是我人生中美丽的一页..好好享受在这里的5年,这就是我要的..~

来了这里,爱上了独自一个人的时候.自己在房间听歌看书,发发呆也好,就是做自己喜欢做的东西.寂寞孤独感难免会趁机入袭,想念家的感觉更是加倍.曾不让自己想家,不让自己静下来,怕想家会哭,甚至忘了自己身在韩国.可是回到现实,放下脚步,问问自己,你还好吗?这问题,不懂得答,眼泪在眼眶打滚,哽咽着,无奈,无助,想念,惆怅顿时涌了出来.这眼泪,我忍了好久,终于流出来了..

~喜欢今天的devotion topic~

Why must I suffer disappoinment,sorrow,and tribulation?What have I done that God should send me trials?These questions are constantly asked by God’s dear children.

Much of this fear and questioning is due to our missunderstanding of God’s dealings with His own.He has His good reasons.And one of those reasons is for our spiritual discipline.

On the shores of Lake Michigan are great barren sand dunes that have never felt the point of a plowBut in the rich lowlands beyond them,the farmer is constantly cultivating the soils.The farmer knows what he is doing.The deeper the plow works and the more the sharp harrow,the more precious the crop will be when harvest time comes

God’s plow goes deep,but it is only that in the end we may forget the plowing and rejoice in the blessing of bearing much fruit for Him."No chastening seems to be joyful for the present,but painful;nevertheless,afterward it yields the peaceable fruit righteousness to those who have been trained by it" -Heb.12:11

      "When blades of distress cut deep in the soul,

       Breaking up ground that was untouched before,

               The Lord is preparingsoil to bear fruit,

                    Fit for the harvest to feed many more."

- All sunshine and no rain make a desert - =)

                                                                           ~Daily Bread~

Yeps..I know this is His will..Looking back,yea,God really blessed me abundantly..Things don’t always turn out how we wish them to be,but "A man’s heart plans his way,but the Lord directs his steps" (Prov.16:9) If we’re doing God’s will,we’ll be in the right place..=) So,i am doing His will,shoudnt be afraid of anything..Will walk with him,with great faith..=) I may not see what’s in front of me,but with His guidance,I’ll reach the final destination with victory..=)

I am so blessed,because I am His chid~ =)